This has been happening a lot lately...me staying up late. Not able to sleep. Head racing. Thoughts of sadness and regret. Thinking about how time has gone by so fast. It's not fair, especially when you feel like you've been cheated out of a lot of time. Time is so precious. And it really fucking scares me to think of more of it passing. Soon I will be old and everyone I know will be gone. I'll be one of those old women or men you see sitting at a restaurant eating alone. Soon my parent's will be gone and I'll have no one to turn to for help or advice. And that's a horrible scary thought. I don't want to be alone.
