It's been too long.

I just got an email saying I've received a comment on my blog....I had completely forgotten about this blog, oops sorry bipolar blog lol. I guess I've just been busying doing nothing.

I'm still completely off any medications, which is huge for me. I hate having to take meds, especially when I feel in my heart there is nothing wrong with me. Everyone gets sad sometimes, right? And it passes.

I have been feeling sad lately. I guess it has a lot to do with being lonely. I have 2 children under the age of four and a husband so technically I'm not alone but I feel so isolated, sometimes it's paralyzing.

And what makes it even worse is that I've finally excepted the fact that I have no friends. Up until now I've still tried to reach out to my high school friends. Write them on Facebook and say we should get together and catch up and so on. And they used to at least write me back with excuses but now there's nothing. No response.

So I think it's finally time to except the fact that maybe they didn't even really like me. lol

I don't know.

I think this coming year is going to be a good year for me.

I'm going to get my license.

I'm going to lose 50 pounds of myself.

I'm going to spend time with my sisters and my brother.

And I'm going to be happy because I like me.

Oh and I'll try to write more, especially about my hospital stays and experiences with mental illness.

Now to try and get some beauty sleep.

Good night.