Welcome back Family Drama

So it's a new year. A new start. I find myself in this numb, sad state most of the time. And it's comfortable, at least I've made friends with it. My daughter started Preschool last week which means I'm on a schedule for most of the time, which I hate. but it's good for me. To actually get dressed in the morning. To go outside and get some much needed exercise. And I've actually started drinking water (that's huge for me).

But the golden rule is that when one part of your life gets better, another falls apart.

There's a lot of family drama brewing. And it feels like deja vu because we've been through it all before. It's hard when you see someone you love basically throwing their life away and you're helpless to stop it. It breaks my heart and it's so hard but I am distancing myself from the situation. There's nothing else I can do. I wish there was.

Still medication free. Still struggling day to day but that's life. Looking forward to this snow and cold being gone and summer returning. And I will try harder to find time to write.

Good night.